(don't really know what's the use of this thing so i just wrote this.)
so i'll just start with introducing who i am and well so i'm geraldene kristy r. gutierrez and i live in the philippines. people call me geh, kristy, bgee, buffy, buff, dene, and gerri but i don't really care what you call me as long as you call me. lol. i'm 14 but i turn 15 this november 3 but i tend to lie and say my birthday's on november 1 because it's fun and they believe me:]
ima very opinionated person but i don't judge or form conclusions in my head. i want to get to know you and not who you appear to be, i wanna know who you really are. i don't care if you call me a bitch or any other names as long as you say it straight to my face and not behind my back. i hate people who talk shit behind your back and pretend as if you guys are friends and everything is just fine.
i'm not emo. i don't belong to any stereotype. i don't cut even if sometimes i feel the need to. i come from a whacked up family and grew up in an environment that shaped who i am now. the only memory i have of childhood is full of screams and shouts of ugly names directed to one another. but i can live with it. i've lived with it.
my only escape is music and books. i write a lot. it's a form of escape. i don't really talk that much about what's happening to me and what happened to me and this is how i release. i don't see the point of cutting but i don't judge you if you do. it's wrong to do that but i guess you have your very own wonderful reason why you do it. i just wish you'd find an alternative.
i don't care if you think i'm a huge bitch or a freak or a weirdo. my brain is rewired to take that as a compliment so don't waste your breath. i'm fine with being called names, i don't get affected anymore but i'll go psycho bitch on you if you talk behind my back. i hate it when people can't face me and instead just tell and ruin my reputation with other people when they have a problem with me, i mean why can't they tell me? i'm open with suggestions or violent reactions or comments those things are welcome, criticism too.
i try to learn from my mistakes but sometimes i still do them. i see the errors my parents did but for some reason i have a feeling i'll commit the same mistakes. like smoking and drinking. i always tell people that smoking is wrong but for some reason i kinda know i'll end up being a smoker. i'll probably try to quit but i dunno.
school is a huge part of my life. it's my only escape from home right now. i try to do my best but i don't really like school. i like to learn but i easily get bored with things. i'm not the smartest person in the world but i can say i'm witty. i can think of a smart comeback after a comeback but sometimes i don't use my brain. sometimes life's better when you don't use your brain.
and now i'm saying too much and babbling so that's that. hopefully you won't judge me by what's written here and still try to get to know me. get to know who i really am and not who i appear to be because if you do that, you'll never know who i really am.
i guess that's how i learned to live with my life.
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